you might have noticed that I was pretty unactive lately, which is bc I had quite some stuff to do with german cons and commissions aND PLANNING MY VACATIONS IN SEATTLE!!! that will start tomorrow \o/

so basically I’ll be away for 3 weeks now, and maybe I’ll get to answer some questions after that.

but for the good thing about this hiatus, I’m going to be on sakura con as tavros on saturday!!!

say hello to me when you see me, you prob won’t get the chance to do so again very soon!!!

sEE YOU THERE, tAVROS OVER AND OUT }:D

knock knock

oH JEEZ, sORRY, iT’S JUST REALLY OBVIOUS SOMETIMES, sTUPID LITTLE SWAG,

dON’T WORRY, yOU CAME TO THE RIGHT TROLL,

fIRST OF ALL, yOU SHOULD FIND OUT WHAT, wELL, yOUR PERSON OF DESIRE LIKES, eVERYONE’S DIFFERENT

i’M GONNA GO, uH, fOR FLOWERS BECAUSE FLOWERS ARE REALLY PRETTY AND GIRLS USUALLY TEND TO LIKE THEM,

sO DO YOU HAVE YOUR FLOWERS, i HOPE YOU DO, sO OKAY, uH, nOW COMES THE TRICKY PART, yOU ACTUALLY HAVE TO APPROACH THIS PERSON AND, uH,

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„„„„„„,uH„,

i, uH, dON’T HAVE A FAVORITE, i LOVE THEM ALL A LOT, bUT hEY BECAUSE IT’S RELATED SOMEHOW,

lOOK AT THAT COOL SHIRT gAMZEE GAVE ME FOR 12TH PERIGEE’S EVE, }:D

wE’VE TALKED ABOUT THIS SEVERAL TIMES NOW, gAMZEE, i MUST PLEASE ASK YOU KINDLY TO, uH, hAND OUT MY KEYS,

aND EVERYTHING ELSE YOU THOUGHT WAS A GOOD IDEA TO TAKE WITH YOU FROM MY HIVE,

oKAY, lISTEN FRIEND, fIRST OF ALL LET ME TELL YOU THE MOST IMPORTANT THING,

yOU’RE NOT A LOSER,

iT’S NOT TRUE THAT i KEEP MY CHIN UP ALL THE TIME, tHO, lIFE IS, uH, tHE PROBABLY MOST DIFFICULT AND CHALLENGING GAME WE’RE EVER GOING TO, wELL, pARTICIPATE IN, iT KICKS ME OFTEN ENOUGH THAT i, uH, hAVE THOUGHT ABOUT JUST STOPPING, bECAUSE IT’S SO EXHAUSTING AND IT MAKES YOU SO VERY, vERY TIRED, aND YOU STILL FEEL LIKE SUCH A DISAPPOINTMENT„

bUT TRUST ME FRIEND, nONE OF THIS IS AN OPTION THAT WILL STATISFY YOU IN THE END, nEITHER SELF HARM, nOR, eNDING YOUR LIFE, sINCE YES, yES IT WILL GET BETTER ONCE YOU CAN FIGHT YOURSELF THROUGH A DOWN, i’VE LEARNED THAT, tHERE ARE, uH, aLWAYS PEOPLE THAT CARE FOR YOU, eVEN IF IT TAKES YOU SOME TIME TO REALIZE,

i WANT YOU TO PROMISE ME SOMETHING, sOMETHING’S THAT, uH, rEALLY REALLY IMPORTANT,

iF YOU EVER FEEL SAD OR DEPRESSED, mAY IT BE BECAUSE OF EVEN THE MOST STUPID REASON, i WANT YOU TO CALL ONE OF YOUR HUMAN CRISIS HOTLINES, (here’s a nice list with numbers for the US, if you live outside, google pops up with a lot of helping numbers!) tHEY WILL LISTEN TO YOU AND WON’T JUDGE YOU, dESPITE HOW SMALL OR STUPID YOUR PROBLEMS SEEM TO YOU, iT WILL MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER, uH, mAYBE EVEN SAVE YOU AND THIS IS WONDERFUL,

i KNOW THAT THIS ALL IS, uH, rEALLY HARD FOR YOU, i BELIEVE YOU THAT, bUT NEXT TO THIS, i BELIEVE IN YOU, bECAUSE i CARE FOR AND LOVE YOU, fRIEND, eVEN IF WE HADN’T HAD THE CHANCE YET TO GET TO KNOW US, }:) 

(this goes to everyone who doesn’t feel too well, to every single one of you. I want you to stay strong, because I know you can do it and that it will get better one day. never be afraid of asking for help. I love you.)

hELLO PEOPLE OF THE INTERNET, i WANT TO WISH YOU A NICE HUMAN CHRISTMAS AND THAT YOU GET A LOT OF, uH, rEALLY GREAT PRESENTS AND, yEAH, a LOT OF LOVE SINCE i’M P SURE YOU ALL ARE REALLY COOL PERSONS,

i’D GIVE EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU A HUG BUT, wELL, kANAYA SAID i’M NOT ALLOWED TO TOUCH STRANGERS ANYMORE SO, uH, jUST USE YOUR IMAGINATION,

hAPPY 12TH PERIGEE’S EVE, }:D